I also believe is gay. I so want to talk to somebody about this but there is not a single person I can tell. I have known about the cross dressing for 20+ years. I remember the first time I found out. I was wearing a sexy white dress and we had gone out to some of our favorite bars. Like most times we drank and came home and made out in the the backyard. Kurt then asked me if he could put my dress one- I was floored but agreed. I vaguely remember talking about it the next day but don’t remember the specifics.
I know that he often comes home early and gets ‘dressed’. I find my shoes in different spots etc. I have found him wearing my underwear under his dress pants. And he especially likes pantyhose, he goes thru the my Goodwill pile and pulls dresses out….
Now, when it comes to sex Kurt was really not that great of a lover, frankly a rather poor one at that. Since he can no longer get an erecetion (which was never that great even when he could) we just use sex toys. Of course his favorite is the long, extra wide dilldo that looks and feels fairly real. He loves to give it a blow job and suck it while he jacks off and asks me to talk sexy to him. Lately he now wants me to fuck him with it. I admit I like to jam it in him just so it hurts a bit. I pray I don’t tear anything, but at the same time wish it would do some harm. He likes to be pegged too…
And why do I think he is gay? Because he loves all this stuff and I can ‘see’ he secretly wishes a real man was fucking him. And in the last couple of weeks he has started to use the phrase ” He is just such a sweetheart”. What man calls another man a sweetheart??
I am repulsed by all of this and wish it would just go away, but I know it will not. Not unless I leave or die.
I need a mans man- not a man who likes to dress like a women, suck on dicks but denies being gay.
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